Saturday, October 22, 2016

Weekend woes

Day 5 & 6
I survived my day yesterday.  Friday is my day off and so usually my the day is laid back and low key or very busy.  Yesterday my day was the later.  I started my day off with a long walk with my walking partner Lilly Rose (my dog).  Came home and added in squats, sit ups, and pushups.  Then the rest of the day was a whirlwind.  On crazy days like that I find myself not as hungry.

Breakast: 2 eggs, 1 bacon, bulletproof coffee
Snack: none
Lunch: chicken and roasted veggies leftovers
Snack: none
Dinner chicken fajitas, mexican cauli rice, and guacamole, apple cider
Snack: more fajitas, cucumbers and quac, larabar

We tailgated with friends last night.  There was lots of yummy food to choose from and lots of drinks to be had.  I stuck with my water but did have a handful of the mexican popcorn I had made.  It was made with coconut oil and mexican seasoning.  I feel o.k. with my decision to have a little.

Today will be another challenging day.  I am about to head out to a wedding.  For breakfast I had 3 eggs and 1/2 and avocado.  I'll have leftover fajitas and caulirice before I leave for the wedding.  But I'm not sure what to expect there and it's an hour and a half drive.  I'm packing some celery, grapes, and a larabar to be prepared just in case.

I always find weekends more challenging to eat paleo.  The mix of social activities and flexible schedule make planning a little more complicated.  I don't find myself stressing over food but at the same time I don't want to put myself in a position to not have an alternative option.

On a more personal note, I'm so excited to witness my friends wedding today.  She's my ministry person.  She's my first call when I'm challenged at work or in my faith.  I've witnessed her wait patiently and through some pretty horrible blind and not so blind dates to find the person God had intended for her.  I'm so excited today that she gets to make her happily ever after come true.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Stormy Stress and success

Last night my looong night at work got just a bit more stressful!  I had about 250 people to think about their safety as some severe weather rolled in.

On the bright side, no time to be hungry and snack but on the low side...after stressful events I tend to eat.

Not last night.

When I got home, I had my apple that I didn't eat for a snack yesterday during the day.

I did it...another day of behavior change.

Today my temptation came this morning at our staff meeting.  A co worker brought in a still warm delicious smelling coffee cake and bananas.

I did it, again...I only ate the banana.

Today has been a fast day and I'm looking forward to watching G & E in football action tonight!  So keeping this short and sweet on day 4.

Breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 bacon, 1/2 avocado, red pepper slices, banana
Snack: none
Lunch: leftover hamburger and celery slices
Snack: none
Dinner: grilled chicken, roasted veggies
Snack: Apple and almonds

Vitamins: Check.

Tomorrow looking forward to another walk, squats, and ab work.

I can do this!!!

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Oh the Detox!

Holy heck detox!  It hit me hard yesterday after work.  My head HURT!  When I got home from work Mr. said, "what is wrong with you?"  I looked at him and said "I'm detoxing."  Enough said.

I was also too hungry yesterday.  We had a yummy protein and fat filled taco salad for dinner.  I could have eaten 5 of them.  I contemplated making some homemade sweet potato fries but then decided I needed a quick nap.  Lucky for me Mr. and the boys had football practice so the house was quiet.  I got a solid 45 min nap in and woke up head ache free.  I can't remember the last time I took a nap.

When I woke up I felt 90% better.  I was still hungry.  Then the boys came home and were looking for their after practice food.  Mr and I did our best to steer them clear of the junk that lurks in the pantry.  Ultimately, Mr. made them on the stove popcorn.  Oh the smell!  I didn't cave.  Someday once I've detoxed enough, I'll have popcorn again.  We make it on the stove with coconut oil or bacon fat.  It doesn't really bother me too bad and gets me through some snacky fazes.  But I knew if I gave in last night, I'd be letting my withdrawal win.  I had a few almonds and that was it.

I woke up equally as hungry this morning so I made myself a couple extra pieces of bacon and and 1/2 an avocado.  For my snack today, I had peppers and celery.  For lunch I had leftover pork chop and brussel sprouts.  Dinner will be grilled hamburgers with grilled onion and homemade sweet potato fries.  I have an apple with me at work since it's my extra long night.  My water intake is still going well and I'm visiting the bathroom more than I'd like.  ++PLUS++  I remembered to take my vitamins this morning!!!

So if you're new to paleo, the detox can be the hardest part of people.  Our body is used to working on processed junk food, caffeine, and sugar.  When you take those things away from it, your body will revolt!  I usually get headaches, am very tired, and cranky.  The thing that keeps me going is knowing it will get better.  I remember the very first time I detoxed.  I was going to bed at 8 p.m. as soon as I tucked in the boys.  I thought I'd never make it!  After a week or 2, I turned a corner and felt so much better.  I had more energy and the headaches went away.  I'm looking forward to that happening again!

Thanks for being with me as I journey down this road.  I appreciate the sweet and encouraging comments I've received.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Water works

Oh my dear goodness!  Day 2 and I am SOOO tired of visiting the restroom.  I've really focused these last 2 days on making sure I was drinking lots of water.  I feel like my body is rejecting it...but I know it's really using it to flush out all the bad.

Last night finished as good as it started.  My boys are very busy this week as we wind down one sport and pick up another.  Which had them eating a 4th meal after 2 practices.  Someday's it's hard to keep food in our house.  Unfortunately, after our camping weekend we are too well stocked on junk too.  But I'm happy to report that I didn't cave.  I didn't even have a snack after our early dinner.

So this morning I started my day with my 6 a.m. wake up walk, ab work, and stretching.  I really thought about hitting my snooze but decided against it (and so happy I did).

Eggs, bacon and bulletproof coffee for breakfast.

Carrots and celery for a mid morning snack.

Veggie Soup and leftover pork chop and brussel sprouts for lunch.

An apple for a mid afternoon snack.

Dinner tonight will be taco salad.  Of course to make it paleo I hold the chips and cheese.  My taco salad has romain lettuce, grass fed meat, green and red peppers, organic salsa, avocado, red onion, and cilantro.  I'm looking forward to dinner!

Wednesday is my LONG day at work.  So I'll be sleeping an hour later.  My goal for tomorrow is not to forget to take my vitamins!

Monday, October 17, 2016

6 a.m. Wake up call

You know, one of my worst fears when deciding to be public about my paleo journey was gaining weight back.  I worked so incredibly hard to get my life back.  I was working about at 5:30 a.m. Meal planning and cooking like a boss.  It worked.

Then I got pregnant.  Then I lost Charlie.  Then my life stopped as I knew it.

I remember telling my mom when I was on bed rest trying to save him.  Whatever the outcome was I didn't want to go back to who I was.  I wanted to feel strong.  I told her to not let me go down a bad road.

The thing about that is...I didn't at first.  After I lost him I stayed true to paleo lifestyle.  As soon as I was allowed I was back at Crossfit working out.

Things started to unravel for me one by one.  First was working out.  I loved feeling strong and when I went back I quickly realized I wasn't strong anymore.  Then people would unknowingly say things that would make me swallow hard.  Babies were born healthy...the same month Charlie was due.  I saw tired parents working out and to be honest it pissed me off that I got a good nights rest (well with the help of a tylenol pm).

Then a few changes happened at my gym and words were said or not said and I decided to walk away.  I found myself at a new gym.  It was warm and welcoming but it wasn't my home.  I tried for several months to make it home but never got there.  Plus the anxiety set in as I got closer and closer to Charlie's 1st birthday.  It was bad.  I needed a break and so I walked away from there too.

During this time I was staying pretty true to paleo.  I still stay pretty true to paleo for meals.  In between those paleo meals, not so much.

I've sponsored and participated in challenges to help inspire me to keep going.

In April I ran my first mini-marathon at a turtles pace.  Then pretty much stopped working out all together.

I've sought spiritual direction.

I've started over again more times than I care to count.

I've hosted girls nights and card parties to help get through the months.

I've been trying so hard to find what my new normal is, should be, will be.

My sweet mom has whispered so many, don't give up comments (without actually saying "don't give up.)  She's worked hard to be the role model that I used to be to others in my nutrition and activity.

The thing is, it sneaks up on you.  I've never intended to go back to who I was before I found a better lifestyle.  But I feel gross again.  That's the best way I can explain it.  I can tell that my body is mad at me in so many different ways.  I crave feeling strong again like I never did the first time I walked this journey.

I don't feel sorry for myself nor do I write this hoping you'll feel sorry for me.  I'm more pissed at myself than anything.  At one time, my spiritual director kept telling me to be gentle with myself.  I probably needed to be at one point but then I started using it as a crutch.

So here I am...tired again of feeling sick and tired, knowing that I'm the only one that can change me.
Knowing that if I make a few corrections in my nutrition and exercise that I'll be right back on track.

Knowing that because my heart continues to ache incredibly bad, I'll never feel as good as I did the first time.

But here's the deal.  I want better for my family.  I want better for me.

So this morning I set my alarm and actually woke up.

My dog and I went for a brisk morning walk.  I came home did some core work and stretched.  I had eggs and bacon for breakfast, carrots for a snack, leftover soup for lunch, and apple for an afternoon snack and I'll be having pork chops and brussel sprouts for dinner.

You blog land will be my accountability.

It will be messy.

It will be beautiful.

It will give me accountability.

I will overcome this.

Until tomorrow.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Paleo Challenge Ready!

Mr. and I are hosting a 30 day paleo challenge kicking off June 8th-July 8th.  If you are interested in joining our challenge send me an email to  We are hosting another challenge for several reasons.
1.  We need accountability in a big way!  Keeping you accountable will help keep us accountable. We're going to walk through this with you side by side every step of the way.
2.  We want you to have a chance at changing your life.  Mike and I's life has forever been changed following the Paleo Lifestyle.  We do these challenges because we want to pass on what we've            learned and to help others heal their bodies through food.
3.  We personally have been on a paleo roller coaster for way too long.  We're ready to get back at it and share with others this lifestyle again.

Yesterday we hosted a Facebook Live event for our paleo challengers. You can find it on my Facebook page: Food is a Drug #Paleo.  It was interesting to say the least.  So much to say so little time and for some reason I was a bundle of nerves.  We plan on hosting these once a week through the challenge. There were so many additional things I wanted to say, I thought it would be better in a blog post.

Paleo Challenge Ready!

1.  Meal Plan
The first thing I did was meal plan for the week.  This seems easy enough but it does take a minute to take a peek at your families schedule, what's on sale, and bring it all together.  We generally use Emeals for meal planning but don't always use 100% of what they offer for the week. I also know it's important to think through what I want for lunch too.  After dinner we almost always have leftovers but as the boys get older that's not always 100% guarantee.  I have 3 lbs of burger thawing for dinner tonight.  That was the only way I knew I'd have leftovers for tomorrows lunch. I post our meal plan on the refrigerator so my family knows what to expect.  I then make my grocery list for the week.

2.  Clean it out
I started with my refrigerator.  Luckily, I had time and made it a priority on Saturday morning to work on getting paleo ready.  So this time I took everything out and cleaned all the shelves and drawers so that we could start fresh.  I only put things back in the refrigerator that were paleo friendly or that my kids would consume in the next 30 days.  Then I moved on to my pantry which was for the most part ready to go.  Just a little reorganization wiping down shelves and it was ready to go.  When we did our first paleo challenge I also took things like canola oil, vegetable oil, sugar, flour, etc and put it in the back of a cabinet I don't use often.  Once we adopted the lifestyle long term, I gave it away to a friend.  When your kitchen is organized and ready to go following this lifestyle is easier.

3.  Paleo Shopping
With my grocery list on hand, I headed to the grocery store.  I've come a long way in paleo grocery shopping.  I remember in the beginning my shopping trips took me entirely too long.  Some of that is because I didn't know where to find things and another part is I needed to look up what some fruits and vegetables looked like.  Pre paleo I had never bought leeks, parsnips, spaghetti squash, butternut squash, bok choy, etc.  I would literally be standing in the produce section googling pictures of things on my list.

4.  Washing and prepping
I think this part is so important.  I've heard many times from people that they found the prep and even cooking things ahead a time a valuable lesson for the paleo journey.  Sometimes Mr. and I will refer to this as a cooking WOD (workout of they day).  This weekend I washed all my fruits and put them in bowls at eye level.  With my kids being home all summer, my goal is when they reach into the fridge it's easy to pull out a snack so they don't go on the hunt for junk or something unhealthy.  Mr. also grilled a family package of chicken thighs for us to have for lunch and snacks this week.

5. Condiments ready
We also spend our cooking WOD time getting condiments ready.  Paleo mayo was made for our burger bar tonight but we've also been know to whip up a batch of  paleo ketchup or barbeque sauce as we are getting ready for the week.

6.  Grab and go breakfast
Since you'll likely kick off your paleo challenge with breakfast, it's my experience that you make this as easy as possible.  There are lots of great paleo egg casseroles just a google search away.  Some of our challengers will make egg mixture in muffin tins so they can pre package them for the week.  It makes getting out the door and kicking off your challenge easier if you aren't used to eating a hot breakfast.

7. Lunch ready
After we're done with dinner every night and are cleaning up I package our leftovers for lunch the next day.  In the morning, the process getting out the door is simpler because we can just grab our leftovers for lunch and head out the door.  We have some challengers that make soup or paleo pizza casserole and they eat that for lunch all week.  I like this idea because they use their cooking prep time to prepare, cook, and package their lunches for the upcoming week.

8. Dinner Prep the night before.
As time allows, I like to do as much dinner prep as I can the night before.  Sometimes that just mean getting the meat out of the freezer to thaw.  Other times, I'm able to cut up veggies or precook meat.  Whatever I can do to make the process simpler for the evening meal, I do.

There's a common theme in these 8 steps to being Paleo challenge ready and it's planning!  Planning and prepping is key to a successful paleo challenge.  Now go get yourself ready.  We kick off in 2 days!  Food is a drug #Paleo

Monday, November 16, 2015

Challenged Again...

I find myself starting week #3 of a 6 week challenge.  I am going to be totally honest and say that I love challenges!  I love challenges because I tend to be competitive.  Plus it gives me more purpose on my journey.  This challenge has been pretty gentle.  That is until today.  Someone took away my red wine and I already miss it.  I don't even drink it very often.

Our first week we started by journaling.  I've been tracking my sleep, food, water, and movement.  This has been good for me in keeping me accountable to what I put in my mouth.

Our second week we committed to 3x per week of exercise.  To be honest it was a great motivating factor when I wanted to hit snooze on the alarm last Wednesday.  I love getting my workouts in during the early mornings but I sure don't like getting out of bed for them.

This week we've cut sugar.  (duhn, duhn, duhn)  For me this won't be any where near the first time.  Sugar for the most part is out for me already.  I will miss that glass of wine or three of red wine the most.

I personally like the feeling of change.  I feel better eating healthy and being on track than I do when I veer off.  Why I let myself juggle this I'm still not 100% sure.